27th April 2008

Thoughts:
Just wondering to myself...as I see people around me who have gotten into a relationship and yet they get their hearts all broken into pieces and such.

Love is a funny thing. It is unexplainable sometimes...weird and frustrating. Many rush into one without knowing the responsibilities...the severity of it not working out and eventually leading to a breakup. I guess the initial stage of courtship is PASSION and attraction? But that PASSION can and may die out as time progresses. What would one do then? Grow tired and just change target? Continue to work at the relationship?

People are never perfect...and we all have our shortcomings and idiosyncrasies. In the end, I guess that someone you get into a relationship with...has to be someone whose flaws you can accept and can see as your potential spouse to be. Unless...you're the type thats after a short fling? Or experimenting? BUT experimenting can HURT someone's feelings...

Feelings of trust once broken are not easily mended. Why would people then still take the risk and play the field...causing them to fill completely empty and dry at the end of it all...tired of trying...cynical about Love.

The question to ask oneself then would be:
1) Is it better to have never loved or to have loved and lost?

For myself, I haven't jumped into one yet...
and I know I'm not exactly ready...
I don't want to hurt myself and another...
I want to be sure of WHO I want to get into a relationship with...
I need to seek GOD more...

To have loved...one would know the experience...and learn from it...
but going to one again...would take some time...although one would then know what he/she is looking out for.

To have never loved, it would be like an experiment...but it depends on the couple to thrash things out...whenever there are miscommunications..or disagreements. YES, it is not easy...
YES...there a things you suddenly find out about that someone...
BUT...if you truly love that someone...you would see past the inadequacies..and build one another up...with the help of GOD to maintain a GODLY relationship...( many that were from church have gone into relationship and backslided from GOD and CHURCH ).

I just want to ask that GOD will give us the WISDOM to know people
the PATIENCE to wait for that special someone
the STEADFAST FAITH that we will always seek him first
and the KNOWLEDGE that he will always LOVE us.

10th April

NAPFA part 1: 2.4km run

Relatively warm weather. Followed the pace of Cutter again but came much closer this time. :)

New best timing of 10.13min. Cutter was 9min smthing again. But overall, our whole class did well. :D

Girls were cheering us on...haha

Whole class been quite emo...haha...saying "Life sucks"...
well...to a certain extent, there are things in life that really suck...but there are moments of joy as well. JC life is indeed not easy but...it's a sacrifice for a shorter period of time...and we have to see it through. :)

Guess we can just look on the brighter side of life...but of course, not forgetting God. Seek God first and all these shall be given onto you. Let us cast our cares upon him...and he will make our paths straight. :D

Different Perspectives 7th April 2008

Was reminded today that there are many ways to view something...although most of the time we tend to view it negatively...like its unwanted...or unneeded, just a waste of time. Been pretty angsty the past few days...gotta lighten up and smile more...

Wasn't exactly my day today...I forgot to bring my tie for morning assembly...(its held every Monday) Well, seems like the V.P Mr tan noticed that a lot of people weren't wearing ties and asked that those who didn't bring or have it with us then..to meet the discipline teacher after assembly. Had to surrender our EZ-link cards to him before going for lesson with the stigma attached that we had to buy a new tie in order to get the card back.

At once, u could sense that people were cussing in the back of their minds...like "why do we need to buy a new tie!?"..."this is ridiculous"..."over such a small thing?"..."what a waste of money"..."what's the point?"

Yes, indeed these are some of the instant thoughts mused. We tend to focus on what's negative and wrong...being to caught up in ourselves that we forget...it is not an easy decision to ask all the students to buy the new tie as well.

Most of the time, we would like to be on good terms with everyone...but there will be instances where one has to play the "bad guy" and spoil the fun for everyone...being a "wet blanket". If they had a choice, I'm sure they would not want it to end up in such a way as well. However, this is just a cold hard brutal fact of life...that sometimes, to settle the problem, it has to have a lasting impact...and what better way...then to target the purse as people tend to be stringent with money...seeing as how prices are increasing...etc

Maybe we are too used to be given chances...or routine to seeing things not being effectively carried out...that this action promptly taken by the discipline comity is a shock and unexpected at all. Many times, warnings are given, but it falls on deaf ears....and maybe this has prompted it to such measures that punishment is dealt first...questions later...so as to skip the hassle of checking up on e individual...and at the same time...send out a message that "I mean business"...
kind of tone..that echoes throughout the whole school...

It is not easy to accept the harsh and at the same time a little unreasonable...but justifiable punishment...but it's the best solution...in both the long and short run. It comes at the cost of $8...but in turn gain a new found way...of putting yourself into another's shoes...and you'll realize...that what the person does...is in fact what you yourself would have come up with to be the most efficient and reasonable punishment.

In such things we draw new insights and gain a new found respect and understanding of how authority makes decisions...for with each decision, comes a consequence and if one should make the choice...of choosing one's decision...one should be man enough to take the consequence on the chin as well...and move on...

Most of the time, it is a small thing...but we blow it up to big proportions...
I think it's time to just let such things pass....and think more on the bright side...
I must smile more...:) like I used to....

Bye

NAPFA prep

Had P.E today. Instead of the usual mass P.E sessions we had, we did some pullups and 2.4km running. Usually for the mass P.E sessions, we would run around the school 2 or 3 times...a distance of 1.8km and 2.7km respectively. Pushups, situps, crunches, tuckjumps, jumping jacks and running up and down the stairs of the grand stand would follow suit.

Today was quite warm but still comfortable for running. We stretched before running 2.4km. Tried to follow the pace of Cutter, but he lost me as we went along. Think his timing was 9min+ but under 10min. My timing was 10.39min (new best)...haha. Finally hit my target of running under 11mins...
hoping i'm able to break 10min soon. :)

I need to train more on my pullups though :S