So whats new...13/9/2009

I find that the more I reflect...the more unhappy i become, spiraling into a state of sadness that overwhelms me as I heave a heavy sigh. Maybe we would be more happy if we were all mindless hedonistic zombies craving for mass consumerism rather than having a choice of transcending the physical plane and seek spiritual enlightenment. Then again, would that really make us happy? or just blinded by what comforts us at the moment, missing out on the greater good that we have yet to experience before. I can't help but feel a tinge of sadness whenever I reflect and its annoying. I don't want to feel this way, yet I'm feeling this way. Maybe my mind is wrought with things I should not entertain or linger upon...


When will I truly be happy? It might be the selfish innate human instinct that we will never be content with what we have...and yet, maybe I've yet to experience that happiness, rather than just temporal happiness that can't really satisfy much. Indeed, who can fathom what the heart feels? Yet, our heart guides us towards an unknown abyss without clarity of the situation and by the time we know it, we are ensnared by its trickery and dubiousness. But the irony is the fact that we cannot reverse the impact it has had on us. As we grow older, we lose our prior innocence to the realistic happenings in the world. We cannot pretend that it has never happened before and revert back to a state of naivety.


Looks like I'll have to carry on with life accepting the losses I've had on the way and the gains I've had not choosing the easy way out...and hope that the future will have something for me.
I have to stop typing out such posts... :(